As I grow older, my temper gets worse. Probably my expectation of other humans grew higher. But just cannot comprehend how others can treat you as an encyclopedia when you’re as clueless as they are. Come on, use google or do your part in researching. We’re not here to bring you all along; we’re just inviting you to come. Don’t depend on us, and worst, blame us for anything.
Random idea this morning: Should I start my own business?
This is my team. Tmr is the last day of IVP and I think after tmr, almost all of us will be gone. just saying. But that aside, like what nehneh said, so many feelings noww cos it is the last one already. Been too many ups and downs for us but whatever, just hope we end with a bang tmr. Not bang poles, bang each other, bang floor, but bang with the sounds of medals!! good for the guys team they already confirm got medal haha. Thats the best ending. Wonder how I will be at this time tmr. Please please please let us end with a bang. don’t know why I want a medal soooo badly. And I also think that there’re just some people who are genuinely kind and we’re really bless with their existence, guidance, motivation and support. Though its just a short few months but there’re just small things that you see already and go “waaaaaa very sweet leh….” yes yes laugh at me but yeah last match already ha. after this I have no more excuse to not pack luggage, pack room, settle timetable and whatever nonsense that needs to be done. Hope we have a good game and put up a really good fight (:
So I’ve not showered and had this strong urge to type something though I’ve typed much on whatsapp/kakao. Hello you know the feeling when you don’t know if you have a team? Or the feeling when you’re playing for the sake of playing and not cos you really want to win, or cos you don’t want to be scolded. Oh my god, come on I’m freaking 22 and how can I let myself play like as though I’m in the C or B div? Scared coach scold so play to my best, scared coach this, scared coach that. Sad to say, its exactly the same thing right now, just that there’s some minor difference but that’s not the point. How did I end up in this situation? I should have just left omg. I should have just. Please don’t break us up as a team. Please. Please don’t behave as though you’re the king/queen or someone we need to please. How many many many times I’ve said or tried to say that we’re different. We’re not as before. So, whatever method worked last time clearly don’t work anymore. Just put yourself in our shoes, really. Oh my god. I can’t wait for this whole thing to be over. Why must we start with ivp every year. I’m sooooo glad next year don’t need already. Thank god.